2. Letter to You

Dear baby
  I'm writing this back-to-back with the letter before. Kazuma's awake now and is rolling about in his walker, reveling in the thought of feeling like the big boys in the TV room watching the big-boy stuff on the big screen.
  He gets real excited with change of scenery. After being with you for a while, if I take him his face is aglow. Then when he's been with me for a while, if one of the kids is eager to play with him his face lights up again. It happened with the nursery rhymes this morning. When I put him in front of the TV with his older brothers he couldn't have been happier.
  I'm so happy we decided to have him. He's the most amazing gift anybody can even think to have. A moving, feeling, reacting, and expressing life-form that becomes bigger and smarter and even more active as time goes by. It's an incredibly huge responsibility to have and care for a baby, but equally as breath-taking and rewarding to watch him grow and develop into something that is so far beyond our intelligence to control.
  It's exciting to think about looking back years from now at his most difficult years, our boys who'll be teenagers looking back too, and seeing how things have changed. It's mind-boggling just thinking about years from now. Too many things are out of our control, but if we make the best decisions we possibly can we'll have the rights to say that we did the best we could.