1. Letter to You

Dear baby
  That's to you, Honeybuns, not to the baby that got me up at 6:20 this morning. I'm writing this as he sleeps soundly atop the chairs in the kitchen. Somehow I'm able to keep a few of my routines even after his coming--like writing an occasional journal or letter to you like this.
  It's been a while, though, since writing you on this blog. We've become much busier parents since Kazuma came. He's a whole job in himself now, and is proving to be quite the challenge. When he was more little and less experimental, you were able to continue to do most of the things around the house. But now I realize that he often needs constant attention. And his eyes are so big and coordinated, that he expresses what he wants and doesn't want in a really irresistible sort of way. He necessitates personal care.
  I see how he's gradually become a full-time care-for-me machine. And he exhausts you as you carry him in one arm while cooking, cleaning, and doing the laundry; not to mention the shorter naps and shorter attention span.
  I'm sorry that I didn't completely understand all this until this weekend. Well, you've been sick, and I took him for much of the day yesterday; had taken him outside with the boys too. By doing so I realized a few things. A part of me didn't know what to expect and just reacted on impulse. Again, I'm sorry, and I'm thankful that you've taken the enormous changes with his coming so well.
  You're like a rock that doesn't move. It gets rattled and shaken easily, but over the 5 and a half years of knowing you your personality has proven to be an immovable rock.