3.Journal

"An excess of ambition can be just as dangerous as too little ambition. And balance is always achieved in nature."

June 19, 2013: Recently, for me, the future has never been more unknown and uncertain. It's never seemed more out of my control than it is now. But also, never before have I felt this happy and free. Even as a single in the past, I committed my life to a religious cause. And then I must have gone crazy with the contradictions and restrictions that I turned into quote and quote "a bad boy." But even then, my world was small, and my thinking was narrow. The world is a MUCH bigger place now. 

So this morning I've decided (again) to cast regret aside, and look at my life in the proper perspective. Despite the thousand temptations of a better, more glorious life--a life seen in the movies and on TV. I need to take life where it's at. And if I want to improve it, I need to do it slowly, beginning with a good attitude and perspective.

I realize that I can't be overly ambitious. It can really kill. I mean, sometimes it's excruciating to think of what I could have done with my time had I not devoted myself to a strict religion--the education I'd go for, the job opportunities I'd take, and the money I'd save up. But like I said above, it really is destructive--over ambition with regret. I need to take life where it's at. That's the bottom line.