It's hard to believe that I am where I am today. Memories from when I was 14 years old are as vivid to me as if they had just happened last month. I wanted to be a father, to have a family, to have wife and children to call my own; to love, from way back then..
10 years later I have just what I wanted; what I wished for, but with a mind that's 10 years older, that knows what it means to care, to truly care. The difficulty of responsibility and repercussions of caring follow closely behind the thrill of love, relationships, and people to call family. I hope that I can have the strength to keep it in that order.
I will always worry about whether I will make the right decisions or not, but remembering that love and family are the most important things in life--though the risks, hardships, and sorrow are there--what is that worth compared to preserving something as rare and priceless as that?
Thank you, hony, for making my dream come true. I do get hit with apprehensions and the sometimes overwhelming sense of responsibility, but nothing good comes without a price. So thank you. I am a lucky man to be at your side. I love you!
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
To the one I hold closest to my heart
We've been through 2 years and 3 months of wonderful days with each other--endearing days, memorable days. We faced challenges and setbacks, but more often than not, I can fortunately say, that our journey so far has been smooth. We are both personalities of action and change, and that has kept us from stagnation and boredom--thus, from bigger problems.
Yet, it would be stupid and naive for me to think that our road together will always be this way. We are both happy with the prospect of marriage, but what it will mean is beyond what I can possibly predict or prepare for. We have tackled decisions of uncertainty until now, but a lifetime of companionship and commitment is a whole new kettle of fish.
With the determination and active spirits that have carried us this far, though--through courtship in unconventional circumstances, a period of distant relationship, children to mother and father, trial-and-error of living in cramped quarters, living in unideal situations of responsibility and financial struggle, moving into uncertain domain, and finally situating ourselves on our own in a life indigenous to others--I believe we can do this.
We've been through 2 years and 3 months of wonderful days with each other--endearing days, memorable days. We faced challenges and setbacks, but more often than not, I can fortunately say, that our journey so far has been smooth. We are both personalities of action and change, and that has kept us from stagnation and boredom--thus, from bigger problems.
Yet, it would be stupid and naive for me to think that our road together will always be this way. We are both happy with the prospect of marriage, but what it will mean is beyond what I can possibly predict or prepare for. We have tackled decisions of uncertainty until now, but a lifetime of companionship and commitment is a whole new kettle of fish.
With the determination and active spirits that have carried us this far, though--through courtship in unconventional circumstances, a period of distant relationship, children to mother and father, trial-and-error of living in cramped quarters, living in unideal situations of responsibility and financial struggle, moving into uncertain domain, and finally situating ourselves on our own in a life indigenous to others--I believe we can do this.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Hi Sweetie
I'm typing this as we're both on the bed watching our separate movies. Well actually, though we're both watching the same TV series, we're watching it separately because we're on different episodes. You started to watch ahead because you were bored stiff being in bed with the mumps.
Yes, you have the mumps--the real thing. And it's a matter of time before I get it too. Sucks knowing how contagious the darn disease is, and not knowing when I'll be getting it, or if.
I started work on the 13th of this month, and I want to tell you, hony, that it would be a misery working through every minute of the work I do if it weren't for the thought of being able to go home to you and the kids. It's the main thing that gives me the energy and the sanity. I look at the others, and so far I don't see any of them having what we do. We have so much together, and I see that when I look out into the world. I don't want to lose it.
I'm typing this as we're both on the bed watching our separate movies. Well actually, though we're both watching the same TV series, we're watching it separately because we're on different episodes. You started to watch ahead because you were bored stiff being in bed with the mumps.
Yes, you have the mumps--the real thing. And it's a matter of time before I get it too. Sucks knowing how contagious the darn disease is, and not knowing when I'll be getting it, or if.
I started work on the 13th of this month, and I want to tell you, hony, that it would be a misery working through every minute of the work I do if it weren't for the thought of being able to go home to you and the kids. It's the main thing that gives me the energy and the sanity. I look at the others, and so far I don't see any of them having what we do. We have so much together, and I see that when I look out into the world. I don't want to lose it.
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